A posthumous collab

It is You

I sprawl in the grass looking up at the clouds
A skylark hovers above, a dot in the blue
I wonder if it is you

I sit on the beach
The black sand warming my body
A gull squawks overhead
I wish it is you

I lie in our tent, my clothes scattered around
Darkness pressing against me
A morepork cries out
I know it is you.

(Sandy Millar, 1 January 2019)


The ruru or New Zealand morepork. Image by Don Millar (my dad) circa 1960.




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